I can’t believe it’s November already. The time seems to fly by so quickly. At the same time, it’s sort of felt like Fall/Winter for most of the semester here in St. Louis. I don’t know why it has been so unusually rainy and cold here over the last few months (October was the wettest on record!), but the weather does not have me looking forward to winter. Unless there is snow. Maybe snow will brighten things up a little.
My life has been pretty crazy over the past few months. I think I posted earlier about my mom’s illness. She has continued to be seriously ill, with recurring infections and their consequences. Two heart valves need to be replaced now and infection ate away the ball of her hip. We’re also trying to prevent the mortgage company from foreclosing on her house. It’s hard to pay the mortgage when you have no income!
People often wonder why God allows bad things to happen to good people. I wonder that, too. But somehow I have to trust that He has things under control. If I can’t trust God, then I’ll go crazy worrying. And ultimately, while it’s so difficult to lose things that you have worked hard for or hoped for, etc., losing those things doesn’t mean that the world is ending, that there is no hope in life. It just means change. Major change. But change that can be faced and endured. And hopefully change that will increase faith and awareness of how much we need God and others in our lives. “Without me, you can do nothing.”
Peace.
